i have struggled with eating disorders for the past 4 years of my life. i try to get better sometimes, but i usually just give up. this song is beautiful disaster by Jon McLaughlin which pretty much sums up mylife.
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November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
be strong and keep …
be strong and keep fighting! this is gonna be one of the hardest things you ever go through and you have to keep trying! take care
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
thank you so much …
thank you so much and for your support!! xox jillian
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
You are so …
You are so beautiful hon, hang in there, this is such a tough disorder to beat and I wish you all the best. And best of luck with IP if you end up going.
xo
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
thank you so much …
thank you so much for you comment it means a lot. i never said i was anorexic but i was diagnosed with bulimia 4 years ago. i denied it all of the time until i actually accepted my feelings. i think i am going to ip treatment soon though. i hope you are doing ok xox jillian
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
she has an e.d. and …
she has an e.d. and she does not tell us if it’s anorexia o bulimia or whatever.
and however anorexic people dosn’t mean boney people. it’s just about a person obsessed by food and who doesn’t want to eat!!!!! it’s not only a bodily illness , it’s a mental illness too… u don’t “know better” i see… bye.
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
thanks so much!! xox
thanks so much!! xox
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
I wish you all the …
you are so beautiful and important to many people. never give up. <3
I wish you all the good life can bring! healing is possible, i’ve heard
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
yea that was what i …
yea that was what i thought too! because when i was younger we had a 1 month break in between and i really wanted to succeed at conference so i thought it was the best way. obviously i was wrong haha. i hope all is well thanks for the comment xox jillian!
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
I was a swimmer too …
I was a swimmer too, for seven years. the onset of my anorexia was at the end of my last season in high school, actually. I think it was that fear of “oh no, when I stop swimming and working out all the time I’m going to get fat!”
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
You’re a beautiful …
You’re a beautiful girl. Just don’t give up on yourself, give yourself a chance. Don’t stop trying, you’re going to be just fine.
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
that was such a sad …
that was such a sad video. also not being able to go to prom! im still 11, so i have a while 2 go until i go to prom, but i also face an eating disorder- anorexia. i would do the same thing, which is so sad that this illness could go that far!
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
Thanks for sharing …
Thanks for sharing your story, can relate when I was your age. Stay strong hun, you can BEAT this thing.
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
Hey, I could relate …
Hey, I could relate to your story in some ways. I’m trying to recover too and it’s SOO hard but definitely worth it. Don’t give up…you deserve so much!!! *hugs*
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
Hey there. The …
Hey there. The person below left a similarly insulting comment on my video…appearantly, he/she just goes around leaving venom on people’s vids. Please just ignore it, because it’s too stupid to even let it touch you!!
November 22nd, 2009 at 4:28 pm
Very real and …
Very real and moving vid. I hope you’re getting through it okay and good luck with the future x. Just stay strong because there is a happy life after anorexia it just sometimes takes a while to get there =)