Short movie about my bulimia. My first video so sorry for the lack of technical skill involved.
the song is beauty from pain by superchick
*** I am trying to recover from my bulimia now after being in an intensive treatment program
Because of this any comments promoting eating disorder, asking how to “get one” or telling me you are becoming bulimic because you are fat will be deleted.
those types of comments are not helpful in my recovery and they undermine the seriousness of this disorder.
PEOPLE DIE FROM THIS… THIS IS NOT A DIET!!!!!
Duration : 0:4:29
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January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
@whitekanon
It’s …
@whitekanon
It’s not so easy if u just suffer of DCA
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
Stop being stupid. …
Stop being stupid. Work out. Be healthy. If it’s a mental disorder, overcome it. Be strong. Being fit is 100% more attractive than being insanely skinny. Believe me, I’m a guy. Please don’t make me lose faith in humanity.
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
Thankyou very much. …
Thankyou very much. <3
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
hun… i’ve been …
hun… i’ve been there. justifying it. its only cause… etc. read about it. you’ll realise how much damage you do. if nothing be aware. i am.. i still do it.. but i can manage it. it DOES NOT control me. i will live with this always, but provided i can cope i’m good. awareness is key!
my prayers go out to you *hugs* xxx
if you need to talk contact me xxxxxxx
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
I’m just doing it …
I’m just doing it until I get to the weight I want. And I drink lots of milk so my bones will still be normal. It’s hard to stop.
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
No none of these …
No none of these picture are of me…
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
I said the same …
I said the same thing to myself… I was overweight when I developed bulimia… told my self i’d only do it when I over ate… but before I was forced to go into a treatment center i was purging everything I ate… it’s easy to tell your self you will stop when you reach a certain weight… its actually stopping when you get there…Whats the point of being thin if you are so sick(and if you keep purging you will be) you cant enjoy it?
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
That’s what I said …
That’s what I said too.. Hospitalised with massive internal bleeding and my teeth are crumbling out of my head… at 20.. Quit whie you’re ahead..
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
Have you gone to a …
Have you gone to a doctor? Maybe you vomit blood because you have ulcers or have teared your esophagus. If you don’t stop you can cause internal bleeding and you can die from it. I know it’s not easy to stop because once you’ve started it feels like there is no way back. But there is… Please seek help. You can get better. You can save yourself . Be well and take of yourself!
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
You are beautiful …
You are beautiful see yourself in the mirror and think of those beautiful eyes, your shape be happy to be living, eat healthy! you are in this world to SMILE to HAVE FUN to LAUGH with your family your friends and always remember GOD IS EVERYTHING<3 GO TO A COUNSELOR AND TRUST HIM YOU WONT BE HAPPY BEEN SKINNY YOU WILL BE HAPPY BEEN NORMAL AND BEAUTIFUL YOU HAVE T FEEL BEAUTIFUL FROM THE INSIDE BEFORE PLEASE HAVE FAITH BE STRONG AND STP HURTING YOURSELF
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
I was overweight, I …
I was overweight, I know how you feel, it is a quick solution that is sure to work. I am now fighting for my life. I’ve fasted for days, thrown up blood, over dosed on diet pills, tried to take my own life, cut up my stomach. I wasn’t like this before my eating disorder. I’m no longer overweight, but i still see the same body i had before I stopped eating. You will never be happy.
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
I know exactly how …
I know exactly how you feel - ’cause I’ve been there. But I GUARENTEE you’ll regret it. …I don’t know a single bulimic who is happy with their disorder. Myself included. …I’m just trying to spare you the agony.
xoxo
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
Yeah but when you …
Yeah but when you are overweight you sometimes have to fight for your life too. So to me it is worth it. Unless you have lived in my shoes then you just don’t know. Not trying to be smart or anything either. Just saying. It’s not like I’ll be doing it forever. Just to get down to goal weight where I am healthy again.
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
Im scared that my …
Im scared that my bulimia will get worse..i havent vomited blood but i vomit 3 times or more a day
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
Don’t go there. …
Don’t go there. Stop yourself before you get sucked into this destructive vicious cycle. It’s not worth it. …I wish I never started in the first place. ..Now I’m suffering the consequences for my actions. I’m fighting for my life.
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
Brilliantly done.
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Brilliantly done.
. . .This is my life =[
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
i can’t stop, its …
i can’t stop, its so hard to me, i started to vomit blood,but i can’t stop!
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
kdy už si lidé …
kdy už si lidé uvědomí,že mysl na rozdíl od těla neví,kolik má tělo vážit
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
i can’t live lie …
i can’t live lie this anymore.
sometimes i think it would all just be easier if i was dead.
my knuckles are scarred from my teeth and i have the heart of a 75 year old.
this is not worth it.
this is not worth the torment
this is not worth dying for.
but i sometimes i feel like,
i have no choice.
tear.
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
I have a friend who …
I have a friend who use to be bulimic when she was a young teenager and she said its not something she wishes upon anyone. Now she helps people who are struggling with bulimia.
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
same here
same here
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
It’s extremely hard …
It’s extremely hard to fight. Feels like there’s no way out.
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
Please, please, …
Please, please, please stop doing this to yourself, please!!
Your not helping yourself, and i’m sure u were beautiful the way you were before
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
To add to my last …
To add to my last post I would also like to say that it helps to see your self in your imagination as you want to be and not as you think you are. Practice focusing on that. If you eat and purge, remember that we all have moments of weakness and you are not alone. It’s a part of life. But the triumph is in every time you try. Nothing beats a failure except a try. Every time you get up the win for the day. No matter how many times you fall, you have made it a point to live. That makes u powerful!
January 30th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
The hard part is …
The hard part is knowing that in the splendor of life, even at your worst you are worth loving. Guilt is tough to deal with. Guilt keeps you from loving yourself. How about working on loving you pass your guilt instead of the food and purging. I’m no doctor, but I have my own sets of guilt I deal with. Even when I mess up I have a new day to start. the more I practice loving my self the easier it gets. The point is never to give up!